Here I sit just 4 days before this “diet” begins and I’m already nervous and scared. Nervous I’ll fail (yet again) and scared to do so publicly. So, Monday it will begin. I chose Monday because that will be my 35th birthday and what better gift could I give myself than the gift of a longer, healthier, happier life? I didn’t want to launch this blog until Day 1, but as the day approaches I’m experiencing so many thoughts and feelings that I just wanted to go ahead and jot some of them down.

I’ll start with a list of things I want to accomplish by losing the weight. I told myself I was going to be brutally honest on this thing, so here’s your warning if some of this stuff is TMI.

I want to…

…tuck my shirt in
…wear a belt
…run a marathon
…be able to cross my legs
…wear bathing suit in public, without a cover up
…no longer have a double chin
…have better posture
…be able to tie my shoes with ease
…ride bikes with my girls
…eat without having food fall into my boobs, everytime
…have more energy
…run a mile
…be O.K. getting my picture taken
…buy clothes from a regular store
…wear a pretty, sexy bra
…wear white
…go grocery shopping without feeling like everyone is looking at what the “fat girl” is buying
…inspire my children
…avoid heart disease
…prevent getting bra strap indentions in my shoulders
…get approved for health insurance
…feel comfortable in my own skin
…walk stairs without getting winded
…order/buy clothes without having to trying on first
…throw my granny panties away and get some sexy, feminine ones
…avoid diabetes
…wear single digit pants size
…stand and wash dishes without lower back pain