Thank you all so much for your comments on my post last night. I felt silly vulnerable after posting it and considered deleting it almost immediately after publishing, but now I’m glad I didn’t. Getting it out did me good…reading your comments did me better. Yes, I was crying too, holy cow! I’m pretty speechless at the moment concerning all of it, but just know that I’m very appreciative of your support.

I woke up this morning and just told myself that today would be a better day because I was going to make it so – and it was. My eating was back on target, I had a great workout this evening, and I feel like my emotions are almost back in check.

Before I go, let me tell you what happened at the gym tonight. It was kickboxing night and it was a brutal workout. She had us working muscles I didn’t know exist – seriously. Afterwards I went and hopped on the treadmill to get a couple miles in like I always do. Having the goal to reach 500 for the year is what motivates me to do that, otherwise I’d likely just go home afterwards. Anyway, my sister came over and told me that the kickboxing trainer was talking to her about me not realizing that we were sisters. She was telling my sister how impressed she was that I always got on the treadmill afterwards because once class is over she’s ready to be done and go home. I was pretty stunned that the trainer was impressed by me.

I was so tired when I got home that I went to sit on my bed to take my shoes off and get a shower and the next thing I know I was waking up an hour later. I just fell asleep like that! LOL!

Anyway, thanks again – I’m still in this fight. I haven’t given up, and am going to do everything in my power to make sure I don’t!

41.6 miles walked/jogged/ran since January 1st. (2010 Goal: 500)
6.4 miles biked since January 1st. (2010 Goal: 300)
(1) 5K finished since January 1st. (2010 Goal: 12)